Difficult Days

I never imagined loss is easy for anyone to deal with, but having to support a good friend through the the sudden loss of his father this past week turned out to be so much harder than I thought it would be. I ended up spending nearly five days straight with him and his family as they dealt with that difficult time. It was heartbreaking. On top of it all some of the individuals I serve at work experienced trauma that no one should ever have to deal with in life and at the end of it all I found myself so emotionally exhausted that I ended up having a pretty difficult week.

Ironically I was asked to teach a lesson in relief society that directly addressed dealing with loss. It was definitely more personal because of everything that was happening but I loved it. It is such a blessing to understand the concept of eternal life in God's plan for us. This doesn't mean that losing people won't affect us, but we are able to find hope amidst the sadness at being separated from someone we love.

It was a roller coaster week and I was able to reflect on a lot but I am also glad its over. Finally, when I had been away from my apartment for a few days, I reached a point where I just had to be home and had to see my sister. I love how family becomes a sort of grounding point for us to recharge and recenter our lives. As single adults it can be hard to lose this while living on our own but some of us can recreate a similar relationship with roommates and friends. I am glad I get to have that so perfectly living with my little sister. Come to find out while I was reaching my breaking point she had been pretty down herself because I had been MIA for so long. It was nice to come home.

-Aubrey